Analein:Hi Aviatrix, It is nice to share with someone
that understands the pain and frustration of
the illness and the government procedures as
well. Mr. McGill just sent me a propose
statement for my physicians. I have
appointments with them next week, hopefully
they are receptive and help (in the meantime
I just pray). I took a lot of nerve pain meds
for over four years and it was wonderful to
be pain free; however, I was on a constant
brain fog. I now don't take any pain
medicine, but do take a stimulant so I can be
functional for two hours in the morning. I
then take another dose at noon to be
functional for two more hours in the
afternoon. In between the wear-off periods, I
just do what I can. I have a job that
requires a lot of critical thinking and
analysis. I was always a top performer, but
this year my performance eval is all of the
sudden, unacceptable. It really hurts the
pride, but at least I am still breathing and
alive. I do want to continue living and work
towards getting my health restored and
working a full time position is not possible.
My agency will not allow me to work
part-time. Well, stay in touch. &nbs...
Howdy Analein,
Pain bites, and nerve pain has the biggest bloody teeth for sure! Most might say "they understand,or have been there", but until they "are there" full time, no they don't! Part time wouldn't be an option for me either. Technically they don't have to allow me "light/restricted duty" either. I figure if my Director gives me a load of %$&%, hehee I will finish out my leave and go on LWOP. I say that because my new Director has caused me so much stress during this recovery, *I* think it has affected my recovery! Unrelated to him though, when my latest disk herniated, it slammed into the nerve root and that slam alone probably made for permanent damage for me. You are so right on the "pride" issue. We identify ourselves with our jobs after a while. Can't avoid that if we enjoyed what we did!
I am on a high dose of Lyrica now. I am on day 3 with it, and wow, I love it! A bit fussy, but I was told by some that will go away soon. If it does, great, I can take it and work. Personally right now, I don't see taking this an working, so I won't be able to follow doctor's orders on 2x a day - will only be able to take it once a day...grrrr...ouch! After about 12 hours if I don't take it - ouch the nerves remind me that they are there!!!
Mr. McGill seems like a thoughtful and knowledgeable Attorney, and too he has an excellent "track record", so I too hired him. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers that this goes well for you at your appointments. As you may see above, I was careful to let my doctor "know" it was not his failing, and too since he was use the the full blown SSDI, I explained to the doctors the "key" is inability to do essential elements of my job. Gun, tactics etc. He then was very receptive and didn't try to talk me out of retirement, as I have other issues that will be addressed later. Take care, you're in my prayers!!!