I will meet with my lawyer next week to answer about the binding option. But I don't think it's binding. Nevertheless, I'd like to resolve as many outstanding issues as possible in our custody case to avoid future court and legal fees. It was my request form the court to mediate, the Father just files motions with the court and I don't have means to go to the court.
The issues are child support what the Father has not yet paid (our child is 8 y), Father's violence while being with the child, no contibution towards child's health insurance, theraphy (after meeting his father he became suicidal) and no parenting plan from the Father. Father refuses to pay CS and demands full custody of our child. There are some other smaller details that I'd like to solve to just being able to provide safe and peaceful life for our child.
My lawyer's comment about the outcome of the mediation was that it's not going to solve probably anything taking into the account Ftaher's behaviour so far. But we'll try anyway.
I will have my lawyer there to give me some legal advice (the fees just are destroying me but what can I do, I have to try).
I guess I have to show the mediator my proof of harassment to make them understand that I'm not making this up?
I'm just afraid of the intimidation. I know how the Father is bullying, he has done that also in a court room and the Judge has not stopped him. He is so peaceful and just smiles and makes baseless allegations. It just hurts. My mind goes blank and I just feel so hurt. Then his lawyer comes in and interrupts me and my lawyer. The Judge has asked already the Father's lawyer once to stop interrupting. But then the start again when they find a pause in a ruling or in a statement.
You see, I have to solve the custody issue. The Father does not stop dragging me to the court. I don't have resources to fight. I have to either give in or try to mediate. But even in the court corridors when we (Father and I) have to pass each other, it's me who is stepping aside to make room the Father to pass buy. He would just otherwise step on me or push me. I try to avoid everything. He has been violent as long I remember him.
I'm afraid being even in one room with the Father. But I have to go to the mediation and solve at least something. Otherwise it never ends.
Should I tell the mediator about my feelings?